So I read the Bowden VF piece. →
Brutal, fascinating, and based on what I’ve experienced and seen in the killing fields of Internet Sodom, spot fucking on:
He is embarrassed. He has been humiliated.
But he has stayed angry. The classes he attends as a condition of his probation demand that he admit a sexual desire for children. It is considered an essential step toward recovery. J told his instructor that he has no such desire. He never did. He was told that if he persists in this denial he will jeopardize his probation and could be sent back to jail.
So he pretends to be something he is not. He is good at it.
